And says “I do not die on my own accord (2) nor have I committed suicide by cutting my body into pieces or entering fire (4). Command metodie"(3). When everything fails the saint becomes annoyed and does not know what is to be done(8). So he asks God, “Why did You enslave me(4). Am I to weep?(7)” and miserably speaks “I canot bear this frame. Nor can I see the way to escape. Does this slave being in trouble please you?(7)”. The saint painfully expresses these as he is vexed and troubled and miserably says”, “I do not die yet”. This does not mean a plea for death. As the saint sings that God in His grace not only appeared to him but also graciously said to him “Aa Aa” “Come here !” (10) and rid him of his fear and fulfilled his cherished ambition. The saint is satiated in the ocean of grace of God showered on him. He feels happy and is rather overwhelmed with pleasure. But he says that he is distressed. What is this distress due to? It is true that God enslaved him; softened his soul and had made Ambrosia well up in his body and even called him "Come here”. He dived, drank and became satiated with the ocean of His grace and was overwhelmed with all pleasures and joy (10). Since God chose the body of the saint to abide in. He in His grace and of His own accord was gradually transforming the corporal body of the saint into a celestial body. The symptom of transformation is the secretion of Ambrosia in the human body which gradually flows throughout the body right from the hair-root to the holes of the bones. 554
